Tuesday, January 19, 2010

Funky Funkity Funk

Yeah, I've been in a funk lately. Yes, I've been showering...that is not the funk I'm referring to. I couldn't quite put my finger on why, but then my lovely husband reminded me that tomorrow I start my journey on the downhill to 30. Yes, tomorrow is my 27th birthday. No, I didn't forget it was my birthday tomorrow - I just blocked out the number. Yes, my hubby was just kidding. Yes, I know 27 is still young - but it feels old to me.

I've never been big on birthdays. In fact, when I was little, I would hide under the table and cry when they sang happy birthday to me. So, needless to say, the hubby and I aren't doing any big celebrating for my big 2-7.

One of my biggest flaws is that I tend to focus too much on the future and not enough on the present. I've worked really hard on that in the last year, and I was doing really well. But I'm human, and I slide back every now and then. So the specific plans I made for life so many years ago aren't happening the way I planned, and I'm in a funk.

I try to just keep repeating to myself that, "There is a plan for my life, I am just not in control of that plan." And "I must have faith and let go of the control." Some days it helps. Other days, I fall into the funk.

6 comments :

Shana said...

Just know that every birthday you have is another year God allowed you to live. that is how I think of it.

Sonya said...

I turned 27 in November and I know exactly how you feel! I am no longer in my early or mid twenties, I am officially in my late twenties. I would love to help you embrace it but I am still working on that myself. :)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! as much as you are not looking forward to it, have a great one!!

Katrina said...

Oh man, I know exactly how you feel. I focus way too much on the future and what I HAVEN'T accomplished. It's ridiculous. I really have to say photography has slowed me down and made me live in the 'now' and appreciate the beauty of the moment. But when I fall back into that slump, I fall hard. I was just counting down the years yesterday in my head until I'm 30. I wonder if it will really be that bad?? haha.

No matter what, Happy Birthday Sara! Eat lots of treats and celebrate.

Maybe we should start journals of everything we HAVE accomplished in our lives. It's probably way more than we give ourselves credit for. :)

little miss spy said...

i'm in a funk too. i called my mom today to ask if it's okay that i hate 2010 so far.

it'll get better, won't it?

p.s. i take out my christmas present and look at it every day. i just haven't gotten around to photographing it and sharing it on my blog yet! LOVE IT.

Angie said...

Aw, I don't want you to be sad! I'm 37 and I have really enjoyed my 30's. Good for you for trying to focus on the moment and not get too caught up in the future, I know it's hard to do.

GodseySix said...

Well, let me first start by saying "Happy Belated Birthday, Sara!"

Now that that is taken care of: I know EXACTLY how you feel. 27 seemed so much older to me than did 26. I don't know what it was about 27. It was a real bummer of an age for me. But after that, 28, 29, and now 30 haven't been so bad. Just something about 27. I promise, I had this exact same conversation with one of my old high school teachers when I was 27. So just know you are not alone as far as your feelings on that age in particular.

If it makes you feel any better, you look FaBuLoUs at 27! Need proof? Just scroll back to that pic of your super-hot abs again! ;)

Chin up, dear! This too shall pass. (((HUGS!!!)))