Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Anyone want to hire me?

Being unemployed is starting to get really old. Now, before I go on, don't get me wrong. I do feel that being laid off from the specific job I was at was the BEST thing for me. I was losing myself there. It was an environment where all my hard work was not appreciated and I constantly felt looked down upon. I spent at least 3 hours a day commuting and I was constantly exhausted.

The first 3 months of being laid off were great! I was able to spend a lot of time with my family for the holidays, I spent a lot of time helping my sister plan her wedding, I got a lot of things accomplished that I never had time to do, I got to help my sister move and spend some time with her in her new home. Most importantly though, I feel like I am starting to get myself back. It's been a long time. And I'm happier than I have been in a very long time. I feel like I'm a better wife, sister, daughter and friend because of it.

But it's getting old. My hubby is back to working long hours and I am sitting here by myself all day. My photography classes are great, but I can only do so much of that in a day. The internet no longer entertains me. I know what you're thinking, there's a lot of information on the internet! Well, trust me, I think I've looked at the entire contents of the internet multiple times!

I can't tell you how many jobs I've applied to, and nothing. There are so many people looking for jobs and very few jobs out there. It's frustrating. Some mornings I'm so tired of doing nothing that I don't want to get out of bed. I force myself to get some exercise just to get my blood pumping and feel a little better.

I hate that this sounds like I'm whining. I'm not really. I know how blessed my life is. We are so blessed to have the support and love of an amazing family. We have savings in the bank. We can pay our bills every month and have food on our table. I am grateful that we are much better off than a lot of families out there right now.

But I'm getting tired of this. I don't feel like I'm doing anything that makes a difference. I'm trying so hard to stay positive, but some days are definitely better than others. That's kind of an abrupt ending to this post, but I'm afraid that's all I've got for today.

6 comments :

GodseySix said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your job situation. I don't think there's much I could say that would make you feel any better. And from Tennessee, I don't think there's much I could do practically to help you find a job.

On a lighter note, I just checked out those pics of your niece and she is AdOrAbLe! :)

Good luck in your job search! I will say a prayer for you...

Trisha said...

I see this all day, every day!
I work for a Bankruptcy Law Firm. It is DEPRESSING!!!

I really hope that you're able to find something , and FAST!

Keep your chin up girl!

Sonya said...

You will find something. Hang in there. :)

Kristin said...

Sara,

I'm so sorry that you are having to deal with that - but I know exactly how you feel.

When I was laid off in September, it was bitter sweet. I was thankful for the chance to start fresh and to be out of a company that I felt valued me very little. Yet, I also realized bills would have to be paid sooner or later, lol. 6 months later... I'm wondering where the light at the end of the tunnel is? I want to be working again so bad. I miss it.

I don't think that you are whining. It is good to just put your thoughts out there. It's amazing how exhausting a day full of nothing can be - as bizarre as that sounds. It's tough to be positive and to get out of bed and pump out job applications when you never hear a word after.

But, you're right. Some of us are better off than a lot of families right now. Though I am going through a divorce at the same time, I am so thankful to have a loving family to shelter me during this tough time. I try to remind myself how blesses I really am. :-)

I truly hope that good will come of all of this - for all of us "crash victims" so to speak. May we all be inspired to start over and take the chance to do something we've always wanted to. May we all be supportive of one another, too!

- Kristin

shoppingsmycardio said...

just came across your site, and wanted to say a hearty "amen" to this post, as i'm going through precisely the same thing (well, minus the savings in the bank, but whatever...). being in the house day after day does indeed get old...fast. fortunately, i think the sun might be coming out soon, at least in my part of the world, and i'm hoping that will improve my outlook. so, here's hoping a little sun heads your way as well.

Domestically Disabled Girl said...

i agree Sara, while it is nice to have time off, extended time is not always the best. After all, there are only so many blogs to read and facebook updates to catch. I do hope you find something~ but, did I miss what your field is? Do tell, cuz I can't find it anywhere on here...