The first 3 months of being laid off were great! I was able to spend a lot of time with my family for the holidays, I spent a lot of time helping my sister plan her wedding, I got a lot of things accomplished that I never had time to do, I got to help my sister move and spend some time with her in her new home. Most importantly though, I feel like I am starting to get myself back. It's been a long time. And I'm happier than I have been in a very long time. I feel like I'm a better wife, sister, daughter and friend because of it.
But it's getting old. My hubby is back to working long hours and I am sitting here by myself all day. My photography classes are great, but I can only do so much of that in a day. The internet no longer entertains me. I know what you're thinking, there's a lot of information on the internet! Well, trust me, I think I've looked at the entire contents of the internet multiple times!
I can't tell you how many jobs I've applied to, and nothing. There are so many people looking for jobs and very few jobs out there. It's frustrating. Some mornings I'm so tired of doing nothing that I don't want to get out of bed. I force myself to get some exercise just to get my blood pumping and feel a little better.
I hate that this sounds like I'm whining. I'm not really. I know how blessed my life is. We are so blessed to have the support and love of an amazing family. We have savings in the bank. We can pay our bills every month and have food on our table. I am grateful that we are much better off than a lot of families out there right now.
But I'm getting tired of this. I don't feel like I'm doing anything that makes a difference. I'm trying so hard to stay positive, but some days are definitely better than others. That's kind of an abrupt ending to this post, but I'm afraid that's all I've got for today.