Tuesday, May 12, 2009

Lots of thoughts...

...but nothing I'm going to write.

I have something I really want to write about today. The problem is there are too many people that I know in real life that read my blog, and I just don't feel comfortable putting it all out there for everyone to read. And to be honest, I'm a little bit afraid of coming across as an incredibly selfish, heartless person even though I know I'm not. So, I apologize that there's no other post for today (unless I feel inspired by something else later on) but I think I'm just going to write in my journal. Actually, I may write it in blogger and save it as a draft with today's date. And maybe if I feel comfortable someday in the future, I'll publish it and it will be hidden way back in the archives. That way someone who feels the same way may come across it one day and not feel so alone. We'll see.

Please don't worry about me. I'm perfectly healthy and so is my family. There have been no major catastrophes in my life. I'm just struggling with something that is weighing heavily on my mind. If you're the praying type, or even if you're not, I'd appreciate any prayers or thoughts to help me find some peace about all this and get to a better place - a place of acceptance that there is a plan for my life and that I can't always be in control and that everything really does happen for a reason. This is all I can think about and it's making me so sad. And, frankly, I'm sick of crying.


Katrina said...

I will most definitely keep you in my prayers.

Stay stong-- everthing does happen for a reason-- even if we don't understand the reason at first. :)

Sonya said...

If you need to talk or need someone to offer an outsiders perspective I am here for you.

You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

GodseySix said...

Precious Sara, I will be honored to pray for you. What comfort we have, though, to know that your cause for sadness has not caught God off guard! He knew of it even before you did and He remains in total control. I will be on my knees in prayer specifically for you tonight. An honor, indeed!

Sara @ Domestically Challenged said...

I have done the same thing on my blog~ you want to get it out there, but are scared at the same time. Thinking of you!
About the 30 day shred... I bought the latest one by her and it is pretty good. It has alot of plyo moves, lateral moves and some good ab stuff. Not the hardest I've ever done, but not too bad!

Trisha said...

I don't know you IRL, so feel free to write it, e-mail it, and have someone read it. I won't even respond if you don't want me to! ;)

YOUR choice!

I hope all is well!