I have something I really want to write about today. The problem is there are too many people that I know in real life that read my blog, and I just don't feel comfortable putting it all out there for everyone to read. And to be honest, I'm a little bit afraid of coming across as an incredibly selfish, heartless person even though I know I'm not. So, I apologize that there's no other post for today (unless I feel inspired by something else later on) but I think I'm just going to write in my journal. Actually, I may write it in blogger and save it as a draft with today's date. And maybe if I feel comfortable someday in the future, I'll publish it and it will be hidden way back in the archives. That way someone who feels the same way may come across it one day and not feel so alone. We'll see.
Please don't worry about me. I'm perfectly healthy and so is my family. There have been no major catastrophes in my life. I'm just struggling with something that is weighing heavily on my mind. If you're the praying type, or even if you're not, I'd appreciate any prayers or thoughts to help me find some peace about all this and get to a better place - a place of acceptance that there is a plan for my life and that I can't always be in control and that everything really does happen for a reason. This is all I can think about and it's making me so sad. And, frankly, I'm sick of crying.