Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Thank you!

Hey! I feel like I need to catch up with all of you. Thursday through Monday's posts were scheduled because I was in my hometown for the weekend, and yesterday's post was not planned ahead of time. I just felt like I had to get someone else's opinion and I'm so grateful for all your thoughts. I haven't made up my mind yet, but I have some research to do today and I think I'm leaning in one direction. That direction may be pretty obvious after this post, but I have some things I want to say to you!

First, THANK YOU for commenting, engaging in conversations with me, and genuinely caring about my life.

When I started this blog, it was more like an online journal. It was a way to express how I was feeling and to share those experiences with other people so if they felt the same way, they might not feel so alone. Then people started to read my blog and comment regularly and it has become more of a conversation than a one way stream of thoughts. And I love that! It keeps me on my toes and develops whole new streams of thought. It keeps my mind engaged and allows me to write, which is one of my favorite things to do. And I feel like I've become a part of a community of kind-hearted, honest, funny, and plain old good people.

Second, THANK YOU for encouraging me to follow my heart.

All my life, I've followed my head, which isn't necessarily a bad thing. But for once in my life, you make me feel that not only is it OK for me to follow my heart but that it's probably the best thing for me! It's certainly an adjustment to my normal way of thinking, but I'm getting there. And I'm starting to really genuinely feel like my happiness is important. It is more important than having a career or owning a house or anything like that, because if I'm not truly happy, I can't give the best of myself to the people I love.

Third, THANK YOU for continually reminding me to trust in the plan that exists for my life.

After, what I just wrote above, I'm sure you can figure out that I'm leaning towards not taking the job unless they agree to more money, and maybe to just decline altogether. But I really haven't made up my mind yet. Last night, after I posted, I thought I'd probably take the job to be responsible and get back to work. Then another opportunity presented itself (not in the form of a right now, stable job if you're wondering) and it really shocked me. I felt like God put two paths in front of me and was trusting me to make the right choice. Way to make me feel the pressure, right?! But then I remembered that He already knows what path I'm going to choose (even though I don't) and even if it's not the path He wants me to take, He will always provide for me. Six months ago, I don't think I would have had the strength to trust that deeply.

So, I know whatever I choose to do, everything will work out the way it should. I know that my happiness should be at the very top of my priority list. And I know I have some real friends here that will support me and encourage me whichever path I choose. How great a feeling is that?!

So, thank you!


Oh, and YES, I do plan to finish answering the questions you all asked and tell you about my weekend (with pictures of course!) but that may have to wait until tomorrow because I have another busy day today!


Sara @ Domestically Challenged said...

Okay, I haven't read your request for help, but I am off to now! You will make the right choice, I know it. Sara's are smarts people.

KLG said...

I dislike saying I've been lurking, but this is my first hello! Your writing is a treat to read during my lunch hour. You are wildly entertaining, but also thoughtful. Your marriage, along with Hubby, are SO important to you, I am not sure any amount of money is worth losing time with him. I don't know you, but I definitely get that you have responsibility and pride about taking care of yourself, and contributing to the household, but like you, I think God has a plan for you that is far better than missing out on time spent with the one you love. Plus, I have a knack for reading between the lines and your former boss sounds like you've done your time with an absurd jerk, you deserve so much more in a job. The economy will improve and Obama's stimulus may grant you the additional 18 weeks to continue to grow. I wish you the best in your decision, but I think you should follow your heart! It is priceless.

Sonya said...

Here Here!! I think that you are headed in the right direction, whatever that may be. I am so glad that you have had some time to reflect and think about things. I can't wait to hear about this other mysterious opportunity you are talking about!!

Angie said...

Wonderful post! I feel EXACTLY the same way you do about blogging. I've made so many wonderful friends thru random people commenting, it's amazing! Good luck with everything, we're all here for you.